…

How?

It’s Time To Let Go.

I will miss you.

But it's all over.

I'm letting go now.

It has been difficult. Almost too difficult.
But the time has come. Maybe almost too late.
But it's here.

Thank you for everything,
it was magical while it lasted.
We've shared the best times and the worst.
We've had our best times and the worst.
And I am truly sorry for the things I've said and done that hurt.
I only wish you well, now.

I wish you didn't do the things you did.
I wish you had stopped just for one minute,
to listen to what I had to say.
I wish you didn't say the things you said.
I wish you stop saying the things you say,
when you know it's not the truth.
I wish you would stop lying.
I wish you would explain… everything.

But I've stopped wishing.
Goodbye, my dear.
You were my family and my bestfriend, my everything.
I hope you find happiness.
And peace.
I hope you stop hurting.
And then..
you'll find,

life goes on.

Always has. And always will.

The only difference is that you realise, after all these years,
that perhaps, the person you thought you knew so well,
thoughts, dreams, actions, words and all,
isn't really the person you thought you knew.

And that, is the only thing,
that is only too hard, too painful, and all too frightening to learn.

Don’t Speak.

The perfect song.
For now.
Maybe a few more months. And a few more years.
Maybe that's all it takes?

No Doubt.

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to knowDon't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are…
You and me I can see us dying…are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

Hush, hush darling.
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts.

…

Runaway.

Sometimes,

the temptation to run away and leave everything familiar and painful behind,

and to start a whole new life afresh,

from scratch,

brand-new,

is very, very

overwhelming.

Sometimes.

Sometimes….

everything you once believed in and trusted in with every little bit of your self and soul,

disappears into thin air infront of you..

in a heartbeat..

and, poof..

it's all gone.

and then you realise,

you've been angry at all the wrong things,

and all the wrong persons.

And the joke's been on you, for a long time coming.

p.s.: Have I really been that of an awful, self-centered person? I'm afraid I'm starting to believe that myself.