It is getting more and more difficult.. My mind is filled with thoughts of you….
So much of time we spent together. Dreamed together. Laughed. Smiled. Touched.
Where did all of these go?
How dangerous are lies? Neglect?
Why is it so hard?
I see your face everywhere.
Blocking out thoughts. Mundane thoughts of everyday life.
I see my phone. Waiting there. For me to dial your number. The one I have been dialling for over three years. How easy it was. 9384…. The numbers come so easily…
I want to call. Hear your voice again. The way it was.. how natural it was.. you and me.
It was like we were born to be together.
But I can't get myself to do it again. To call you..or hear your lies..or your voice.
I'm afraid, I'll be broken again. I'm afraid it will kick up dust.
Without you, life is different. I'm discovering life. Myself. My present.
The now. People.
How could something so special..magical like you and me..like us.. like that just come crumbling down?
Where there used to be a sharp pain that made it hard to breathe, there is a dull ache now. Discomfort, unease and numbness.
A dull ache.
How are you doing?
Are you doing okay?
Are you eating well?
Are you sleeping well?
How is work?
Have you planned about studies?
Have you moved on?
How is your family? The little one?
Do you still think about me the way that you used to?…
